-1-To be brutally honest, I don't think I have seven things to write about this week as I'm going back and forth between grief (bawling in the confessional...no joke) and this random thing I can only call "ang-termination" (where you get mad and are determined to use that anger/frustration to fuel your mad-cap plans to change your life somehow).
-2-Part of this new change is that after having a YouTube channel for some time (two years with the current channel, three or four if you include the prior channel that was associated with my pop-culture/geekery blog) I am finally using it for actual videos that I'm creating! By that, I mean, I'm finally learning how to do basic editing and posting short videos (hopefully on a semi-regular basis). Feel free to post any questions or suggestions in the comments... Which, actually, brings me to number 3.
-3-An upcoming project may have me (and possibly a few others) drawing random tasks to do, film, then upload to YouTube. I've done something similar in the past on a former blog where I or others have written things for me to do on slips of paper that I then picked at random. We're taking suggestions on activities/tasks and hopefully, we'll get started soon.
As an example, when I did this for my old blog, the tasks included learning a particular dance (the Shim Sham), learning to knit (I failed...please don't ask me to do this one again!) and I think I had to try something that was new for me...something that got me out of my bubble.
-4-I have a stack of books I'm wanting to read this year.
Actually, I gathered the books I wanted to read this year, then doubled the stack and tossed on a few I have started, but haven't finished. It's worthy of its own post, so expect a detailed list in the future of all I plan to read in the next 12 months.
-5-Two thoughts crossed my mind earlier: First, that I should re-join Catholic Match and give it another go. Then I recalled that I spent a year essentially chatting with people who either were in a relationship, didn't want to be in a relationship, or were Catholic in name only.... so.... pretty much the same as talking to people here in town, but without having to pay for it.
Second (which actually goes back to number 3...) was asking a local single guy out to get tea.
...this was a seriously flawed idea that started when (back when discussing tasks) I gave an example of "going on a date" (which would be well outside my bubble) and a friend suggested setting me up with a mutual friend to which the three of us in that meeting all agreed.....no. It just wasn't going to... no. Just...no.
-6-Still waiting for the doc's office to call about setting me up with that last test before I meet with the doc again.
In fact, I'm not supposed to even set an appointment with her until I can have that test so she can go over everything with me and discuss what to do next.
She's only in town once a week, rotating between clinics, which means if I can't get in for that test on Monday, I'll have to push off the appointment for yet another week and the past three weeks of waiting have not been kind to me. I can only imagine what another week will do. I just want the appointment to happen already.
-7-Hey, whadaya know? I did have enough for seven!
I spent New Years Eve with friends and discussed a few things that left me pondering ...a lot.
Things like: How do I know I'm called to a particular vocation and not just running away from circumstanced in my life? (Thanks to Fathers Shane, Lopez and Angel for helping me come to some answer to that). How do I move on from someone when a) I don't want to move on and b) the whole situation matters more to me than I'll actually admit? (I have no answer, and the conventional wisdom of my generation has either been unhelpful, or is simply flawed). And finally, when you have been so determined to force your course in life in one direction, only to have it vanish like a mirage... How do you turn things around and set a new course for yourself?